I sent the email - as Martha says, its a good thing.

So today I decided to write my Dad an email. It felt good. I want the pain of his absence in my life to just go away.

We all went camping this past weekend. It went good. It was wonderful to see the kids all interact and enjoy themselves as they did. Tent camping has come along way with me since we found coleman cots. OMG. I could be a spokesman for this product! These cots are very sturdy and extremely comfortable. They are raised up about 2 feet and there's a mattress that makes these beds extremely comfortable. With these beds, its no problem to camp in the tents. For those who know me I'm sure this is a huge surprise!

I did eat too much, too much of the wrong thing :( The toasted marshmallows with chocolate was way too good and the crackers, chips and nuts were way too plentiful! I wasn't careful enough and today the scale screamed this loud and clear. Made me really think about how easy it would be to slip out of control. But today I took charge and ate well. We even went to the gym and worked out a bit before going to a water aerobics class. I'm happy to be back in the swing of making the right choices.

Heather reached out today and posted something on my facebook. She asked everyone to post something positive about me! OMG I had a ton of results. I love this woman so much. She is totally amazing in every way.

Tomorrow I am taking my college admissions test to find out where I stand. I'm sure math 60 is in my future! LOL 3:00 is my Mamo. Fun day ahead. Off to slumber now. G'night world.

There are just things in Life that will Keep on Hurting You

Dad decided to be a total ass the morning after my sons wedding and hasn't called or emailed to apologize since. I sent a fathers day card and got no confirmation. No reaching out. Its been 3 1/2 months. He and my step mother flew to California and have been going all over with my sister Paula and staying at her and Henry's acting like everything is just so wonderful. I'm happy for you Karla, you deserve to have Dad's attention after all those years he didn't reach out to you. I should assume that I'm old enough now to not need a father in my life. However, reality is....I'll die believing that my father just never cared enough to give a damn to be the sort of father every daughter deserved. I'm so sorry Karla that you missed the years that Dad turned his back on you. Now I suppose its my turn.