TRACY CHAPMAN - THE PROMISE

If you wait for me 
then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart

If you think of me
If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart 

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting

If you dream of me 
L like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart 

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting

I've longed for you 
A and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are 

Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting 

Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise 
If it's one that you can keep
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me 

And say you'll hold
A place for me 
I in your heart.

What I'd like to say ...

Her kisses are full of a sweetness I have never ever tasted before...

Her hands are like silk as they caress my skin...

Her eyes say things that make me go weak at the knees when she looks at me...

Her love makes me vulnerable yet stronger than I've ever been...

My woman, my love, my strength

Today is my first full day at age 53

...so where am I going and what am I doing?

I found out something yesterday that brought back pain I hadn't felt in many years. I don't know why I was surprised. It's not like this is the first time this had happened. But, just like bumping your toe on furniture, you've done that many times before but each time its just as painful.

The road of life really is one lesson after another. Sometimes we think we know and then we are reminded that we didn't have a clue. I try to take the lesson and move on, move ahead, forgive - but NEVER forget.

I want to take the leap, I want to do what makes ME happy and content. Why is that so hard to do?

Go Katy P, GO!

You think I'm pretty without any make-up on You think I'm funny when I tell the punch line wrong I know you get me, so I let my walls come down, down Before you met me, I was a wreck But things were kinda heavy, you brought me to life Now every February you'll be my valentine, valentine Let's go all the way tonight No regrets, just love We can dance until we die You and I, we'll be young forever You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream The way you turn me on, I can't sleep Let's run away and don't ever look back Don't ever look back My heart stops when you look at me Just one touch, now baby I believe This is real, so take a chance And don't ever look back, don't ever look back

Waiting

It seems my life in some respects has been "put on hold" since November 2011. I've had to wait for something to happen, and then the shoe was dropped so I was left waiting for something else to happen.

Finding me was important. Finding the me that was the new me, as the old me would never surface the same again. And yet, I found me while searching through tears and friends and events.

Then, another shoe. Followed by yet another and another and another......

So the trick is to be the ME that is from within. The ME that doesn't change through challenges or events that I have no control over. The ME that is moved by the passions deep within my soul. The ME that finds joy in the simple and the familiar things. The ME that makes others happy and the ME that others appreciate. I am ME. I love me. I love this next new "ME" that resides. And I will continue to love ME and share ME through the end of times.

Connections

Connecting on a level like none other before, feeling like there is comfort and familiarity and yet incredibly new and like nothing previously experienced

Now to give time and space and freedom - must give if there is any hope

I believe

I believe I'm valuable and lovable and worth fighting for
I believe I possess qualities that should be honored and appreciated
I believe there is hope in pushing away past demons and creating daily dances of future loving memories
I believe that what I value, who I am, my individual character traits should be accepted and validated
I believe where there is a pull - there is hope

Time is short and life's continuum of quality is unclear

I choose to live and breathe and run with everything positive and happy and loving